Ever since I joined the Hip hop dance group and dessert making competition for our department activity, I am ecstatic to juice out my ideas and finally perform onstage. I joined two competitions because I failed to raise up my hand in the previous year, also the players in the cake decorating competition has been already decided and I wasn’t given the chance to compete. So during that meeting, instead of forcing me to join skirting, I pleaded to have a slot in the competition again , but unfortunately, same people were chosen because of their experience and so I decided to join the dessert making instead ( ever since Christmas break, I decided to be a cake decorator, not a pastry chef..). As for the hip hop competition it was on my silly 18th year list to learn how to dance: be it hip hop or ballroom dancing, I joined the ballroom dancing in the intramurals, turns out, they couldn’t train aspirants so they chose the professionals in the last minute; this time, they invited people who could dance, so I volunteered . Honestly I know how to dance, the problem is it was two years ago, so I expect that I’m really rusty and needed constant practice.

So there, I joined the first practice which I’m really getting excited about; at first, it was very hard, moving my body like a gell-o and I have to catch up real fast. Our choreographer still has the patience to do the steps all over again, since we were not final in number. The next practice was held in a studio (which was cool but….. dirty.) Steps are getting really complicated and many times, the choreographer tells me that I dance like a worm (haha) but it didn’t stop me from giving the effort. Another practice was conducted and the choreographer gave steps which was way too hard and fast. I was like “what the---“ shock face but I really want to dance those steps perfectly and gracefully.. or like a “yoh” person. I tried, I tried, I ask again and again, it didn’t stop me from pursuing my goal to dance onstage and fight my shyness. But no matter what, I still got reprimanded but I know that he knows I’m trying hard to get it right and I’m trying to overcome the obstacle of being a slow learner.
He’s kind to ask me to join his workshop, but unfortunately, my body couldn’t handle it anymore, also I have other business to do afterwards. There’s one time after practice that I planned to download songs to practice more if I have time after some business and if I’m alone (I shall accept that I am a shy person).

Sometimes, I don’t know If I could still continue joining this competition but what makes me stay is my pride. I don’t want to be a coward and I don’t want to be a loser. I joined this because I want to and I should stay loyal to my decisions, I’ve started it and I it’s a waste to end it without even trying. I want to exceed my limits, to know what I'm really good at. I should move on forward and I don’t care about what they say, what they rant, what I hope is that they could see my motivation.