Note: this post contains senseless immature stuff, if you dare to read this, then fine, I don’t care. It’s posted in public anyway.

Later, during Literature class, Yang replied:

“FYI! I got it from a primary source!”

Duh. Jelia said it to her but Jelia wasn’t present during the last date.

“You think of it as a game? You just don’t realize that you’re just digging your own grave! Do you know what your players said about you? You act disgusting! Flirting! All of them didn’t like it! You wouldn’t want us to know because we might go against it? Well yes! It’s because we’re thinking what’s best for you!”

“uhh guys..” I whispered to them.

“What?” Janelle asked.

“I didn’t realize that me and Marc went waaaaaaaaaaaaay to overboard that night.” I said.

“yes, it’s really awkward.” Janelle said.

“oops, sorry, my bad.” I apologize.

“did Yang replied?.” Janelle asked.

“Yeah… gonna read it to you guys later.” I said.

Moving on with Yang’s message..

“Friends don’t let their friends do something stupid! One of your friends there doesn’t also think before she say something!”

Ooh goodness.. why blame Bea? It wasn’t really Bea’s fault why it happened, it was also our fault.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh.

“Let me read it.” Jelia said.

I let her read the message and she replied saying to stop ranting.

then looks like Yang didn’t finish her sermon yet.

“It’s humiliating on your part because it only shows that you’re desperate to try those things! You’re smart and I don’t know why you didn’t think for a minute that you let your emotions get in your way.. what you did was stupid!”

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh…

I got angry because of what Yang said, surely, she’s not in the right place to do what I’m supposed to do; even though she’s concerned, she’s also reprimanding me because of my foolishness.

I forgot to tell you that before I said yes, I promised to myself not let my emotions get in the way.

But I think I got carried away a little, but it’s not that much, the problem was me going to be rejected or not as a person, not going to fall in-love or not. Besides, how many times do I have to tell you that I like Marc as a friend? For me it’s rare to have a guy friend, and if I have one, it’s really hard for me to keep it.

That’s why whenever I see Rhemar, I gave him bear hugs to death and I just realized that I’m really flirty to my guy friends except daddy Kevin. Like for example, Timmy, I usually try to give him a kiss on his cheek or sometimes on his lips..

..and he’s gay and I hope that he’ll turn into a real guy but I failed. Lol.

OH WELL, MOVING ON.

I know that what we did was wrong so I texted her that it’s all our fault and that we are all stupid and we were crazy doing those things and I said to her that sometimes a person goes through a lot of shit to learn and couldn’t avoid to make crazy decisions… and that we didn’t regret everything that we did.

Oops.

But I did have fun, and also I learned what it feels like to have a boyfriend, at least I could understand my bestfriends Gabee and Liane better and also I have heart benefits too also it boost my immune system because whenever I feel “kilig” my blood flow will be better and thus boosting my immune system, I read it in a magazine years ago.

Crazy magazine.

But it’s kinda effective because I didn’t have tonsillitis for a long long time. Heart and tonsils or throat are somewhat connected, I don’t know why but some say that when you have tonsillitis, you have chances of having a heart failure.

Oh, forget my senseless trivia.

OH WELL, MOVING ON.

And she replied that what I said about a person going through a lot of shit just to learn and do some crazy stuff for a while and us not regretting it.. she said that it’s bullshit.

I gave up texting her, so I said that it’s better to have an open forum, face to face.

And she didn’t reply.

Coward.

And so when literature class ended, I let my friends read the conversation history…

I apologize for this crazy post.