The Great Escape
Thursday, January 31, 2013 @ 10:46 PM | 0 comment(s)
Wake up.make breakfast.do laundry.take a bath.go to school.
Go home. Eat. Wash the dishes.do homework.sleep.
These are the group
of verbs when said repetitive, is my only way to see the day in rose colored
glasses.
Ever since the family feud came to surface, I always think
that I couldn’t trust anybody, nor seek comfort to someone else. Father always
instill in my attitude to be independent, what he doesn’t know is that
instilling that kind of attitude means thinking of breaking family ties.
I envied those who has that kind of close relationship
towards family, and also that no matter what challenges each of them undergo,
they have someone who could they fall their backs to. I however, was immersed
into a philosophy “to gain or to lose everything”.
days became even more darker, I indulge myself into reading
novels, watching movies, seeking anybody else’s company; but no matter what I
do, I still couldn’t let this thinking go.
I came to a conclusion that when I graduate, and be stable,
I should leave the house and literally, cut my ties with my family, whether my
father’s or my mother’s. I want to start anew. I want to forget every single
thing that make up my past. It’s to choose whether to die or to keep on living,
‘cause honestly, I couldn’t help but think that I should’ve been not born at
all.
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